i just got done attending church online with lifechurch.tv. what an amazing experience again. it's incredible as someone who serves in vocational ministry, to have a place where i can go and get fed! beyond that though, it is an amazing experience to literally be able to go to church with people from all over the world. life church has developed an instantaneous translating tool that allows people who don't speak the same language to communicate with each other in online chat! unbelievable!! what a cool experience to literally be part of a global church.

my plug for church online aside, this morning's gathering was awesome! pastor craig spoke on being dissatisfied... which is quite a relevant message to someone who lives in a culture where more is always better. who hasn't said, "if i could just have a little bit more, then i would truly be happy"? it's the mantra of our human existence. yet God calls us to be content with what we have... to not concern ourselves with worldly things but to pursue him with reckless abandonment.

it's interesting, because most of us would say that money can't buy us happiness, yet in the same breath, almost all of us would say if we had a little bit more money, we would be happier... seems quite contradictory.

the big idea that hit square between the eyes this morning was this:

we can all say we believe something, but ultimately the way we live our lives shows what we believe... and the way most of us (me included) live our lives says that what Christ has to offer is not as good as what the world has to offer.

i'm not sure what God is up to in me, but all i know is that my heart was truly broken in repentance as i realized the way i have fractured my pursuit of God with the pursuit of worldly things. i don't want to live my life, constantly dissatisfied! God, breathe in me a spirit of contentment.

I'm becoming more and more convinced every day of the value of taking time to sit and think and write. So often when I engage in this discipline I see the hand of God at work in my life. Not even so much in what I might have to say to others but what I can learn about myself. I have had the desire to blog on a daily basis for quite some time but so often I feel like I have nothing to say. Yet when I just sit and think and write, the words always seem to come. I'm not sure that anyone will ever read any of this but here it is... My attempt at the discipline of writing.